Thursday, April 29, 2010

iCan New Looks

Ssekarang setiap pagi pada hari kerja gw melihat suami gw tampil dengan rapih dan kereeen
Dengan kerjaan barunya yang punya embel-embel manajer sekarang dia harus memakai dasi
Meskipun cuma karena tambahan dasi tapi sensasinya memang jauh berbeda
Menyiapkan baju iCan tiap malam dan melihat iCan rapih pagi harinya sekarang menjadi rutinitas wajib gw
I find it sooo refreshing
iCan looks so gorgeous!

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Mend Ur Broken Heart

When u love someone dearly, the lost of them would always give u a broken heart
But please dont waste ur life with mourning and suffering
think of all the joy and pleasure u had achieve in loving them
A life without love is empty
Feel glad and relief for u had one
Feel blessed for all the love u felt and shared before

This is for my friends whose suffer from a loss and passed away
And also for me, for my always clouded side of mind

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Emotional Breakdown

I was pregnant for about 11 weeks, until i was told that my fetus wont grow
I could see inside the placenta that there were nothing, there was just an empty placenta inside my womb
The only solution for it was to exterminate the fetus
I think i handle it okay
Well i thought i was, until the procedure was done
As soon as the anesthetic worn out i could felt it in me the emptiness
It was overflowing and i cried in that instant
There was a hollow in my heart

11 weeks and it attached in my heart without me ever knowing

Monday, April 19, 2010

I'm Worried

Despite of the excellent and wonderful things i receive lately
I also receive bad news, sad news..
And i have to go through it this evening
It sadden me
It worries me
I cant ease up until it's over
I dont know what tomorrow will bring me

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Buat iCan

Besok, sukses ya!
Wish u luck, wish u brilliant
Hope you can overcome every challenges
Hope the place has a nice environment
Hope you'll succeed!
Mama, Ia' & Ara will always supporting you

Sukses papa!

Thursday, April 8, 2010

For The Better Priority

In the first and second month of 2010 my priority was me
How to upgrade my self, how to advance my self, how to improve my self
You can say that I was ready to take off
But this is just the forth month of 2010 and all my priority and initial goal has rapidly change and turn its direction into my husband's and children's again
:D
No remorse here, no self pitying what so ever
This is just an acknowledgment
I can always make plans but life has its own way of directing people's path
Life does have a way of knocking your consciousness he?
I am after all a mother and a wife

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Melihat Dari Mata iCan

Meskipun udah nyaris 6 taun gw menikah dengan iCan masih ada juga hal-hal yang baru yang gw temuin di iCan
Kebanyakan hal-hal bagus!
Mungkin emang dulu gw masih muda (maksudnya sekarang udah tua :P), yah namanya juga masih muda, darah panas bergejolak hahahaha bahasanya deh, sekarang sih relatif tenang, entah karena darah sudah mendingin, entah males, entah pasrah huahuahuahuahua
Becanda lah, tentu aja karena gw dan iCan sama-sama menjadi dewasa, kita lebih menerima, lebih paham dan lebih sadar akan tanggung jawab jadi ego bisa lebih ditahan, yah seperti lempengan bumi lah, selalu bergesekan, menghasilkan gempa, kacau dimana-mana tapi dengan berjalannya waktu pasti lempengan-lempengan itu akhirnya menemukan posisinya yang pas dan nyaman dan semua periode gempa hanya akan berupa masa lalu aja, persis seperti itu
Anyway gw ngelantur, kembali ke hal-hal baru yang gw temukan di iCan
Yang terakhir adalah bahwa suami gw punya kemampuan melihat sisi positif dari orang lain.
Gak kedengeran spesial ya?
:D maksud gw begini, semua orang juga bisa ngeliat sisi positif orang lain, contohnya meskipun si x suka ngupil di tempat umum, tapi dia gak buang sampah sembarangan.
Tapi kebanyakan orang termasuk gw, bakalan tetep malas deket-deket x karena dia ngupil dimana-mana :P
Kalo iCan bukan tipe seperti itu, dia tipe yang akan melihat: x gak buang sampah sembarangan = x orang yang baik

Hohohohoho, sifatnya ini ternyata yang sering bikin gw kesel, dulu gw gak sadar kenapa dia begitu mudah berteman dengan orang-orang yang menyebalkan, ternyata salah satu alasannya itu :P
Sifatnya ini tentu saja sangat bagus untuk diaplikasikan ke gw hahahahahahahaha
Gw punya banyak hal untuk disyukuri dan salah satunya ya ini

My husband's something alright :x