Again, i am not a mind reader

Everything is best spoken
after all, i am not a mind reader

i dont see the useness of not utterly saying what u want, or what u dont want, or what u like, or what u dont like, or u know, what ever it is u have in mind

perceptive as i want to be i still cant meet ur demand, honestly, u must wanting a psychic

You were so charming
you were always saying the right words, words of wisdom, words of dreams
you were honest
you were respectful

and that is exactly what u are, were.

The One That Got Away

It was sung by Katy Perry
The video clip was very heartbreaking
But the lyric was everything that got me thinking

And in another life I would be your girl
We keep all our promises, be us against the world
And in another life, I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away

The one, the one, the one
The one that got away

All these money can't buy me a time machine, no
Can't replace you with a million rings, no
I should've told you what you meant to me, whoa
'Cause now I pay the price

i really wanna be everything but that
got me thinking about my husband and my life
Got my perspective back



Hey, Katy, thanks

A Copy Paste for Reminder

Namie's lies are of the home she longs for. A happy self.
She lies to decieve herself.
She is always, always, looking for a better place

Kimi ga uso wo tsuita - Yorita Miyuki

Don't Brag Ur Stupid Nonsense

Paling gak suka sama orang yang melebih-lebihkan dan bangga sama sesuatu yang sebenernya bukan kelebihan dan tidak membanggakan..
seperti:
"Anak gw gak mau makan nasi lho, maunya makan roti, susah banget kalo dikasi nasi, maunya jajan melulu, bla bla bla.."
"Gw kan gak suka sayur, paling gak suka makan sayur, kalo di piring gw ada sayur pasti gw singkirin kepinggir, bla bla bal.."
"Tau lah loe, gw tea, paling suka minuman bersoda, kalo gak minum sehari aja rasanya gak afdol deh hidup, bla bla bla.."

aw man, get a life, or better, brag ur unflattering nonsensical stupid chatter to inanimate objects!

Promise Of A Better Day

Life has its way of twist and turn and this is the time of the year..
but i believe life has also its promising, promise of a better day
Lets keep our head up, stand tall and don't back down

32nd

Abis ulang taun
yang ke 32
wooow
kyknya baru kemaren lulus SMA
hahahahaha

Hal-Hal Bikin Ketawa

Ada kejadian-kejadian dalam hidup yang terkadang konyol dan patut untuk jadi bahan ketawaan and i got plenty of it :D
Salah satunya kalo inget suami tersayang waktu mengantar Ia' les membaca menulis.
Waktu itu Ia' baru berumur 3 tahun lebih beberapa bulan, biasanya mama nganter les, tapi kadang papanya juga nganter les, kalo papa yang nganter pasti naik motor, terkadang gak hanya membonceng Ia' Ara pun ikut diangkut naik motor, setelah beberapa kali mengantar Ia' naik motor beserta Ara suatu hari papanya pulang tampangnya kusut dan mendeklarasikan bahwa dia gak mau nganter Ia' les naik motor lagi kalo Ara juga ikutan, ternyata saat perjalanan pulang Ara (dibonceng didepan) bobo dan mbaknya (dibonceng belakang) bobo juga, sepanjang jalan papanya kisruh nahan Ara di depan dan megang Ia' dibelakang sambil teriak-teriak ngelarang Ia' tidur, tapi gimana dong namanya juga anak-anak ngantuk naik motor kayak dininaboboin deh hahahahahaha
setiap inget kejadian ini dan membayangkan iCan kisruh rasanya pengen ketawa terus :D

My Prayer

Habis baca sebuah artikel di internet tentang seorang ibu yang memukuli anaknya karena menggunakan dan merusak lipstik yang baru dibeli..
Anaknya meninggal karena pukulan-pukulan ibunya
Setelah sadar keadaan anaknya dan berhenti memukuli dia melihat di kasur tertulis oleh lipstik kata-kata cinta, bahwa anaknya menyayangi ibunya..

u dont know hard it is for me to re write what i read, it was too sad, too devastated, i cannot imagine such a tragic thing happened..
it was shocked at the first time and burst into tears when i read the notes she left for her mother in the bed sheet..
I cannot fathom the sadness and regrets her mother had

...

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This is my prayer..

Please god lead me and make me a better mother, guide me so i am not wronged the lifes you entrust to me, guide me so i can raise them to be good muslim
Bismillahirrahmanirrohim

Coffee Is Wonderful

1 fact about me: i am an instant coffee addict
An addict with a problem call: acid reflux
:D
I don't know what to do with it, but nowday is a whole lot better that before when i was still working, back then the acid reflux would cause me a heartburn, wew..

That is why right now no cut back on instant coffee :D
But yeah i still feel the unconfortness of the overflowing acid
pech..

Papa Kuliah (Lagi)

Papa mulai tanggal 12 september 2011 kemaren mulai kuliah lagi
Kuliah ngambil jurusan dia sukai dan mendapatkan fakta bahwa temen-temen barunya mantep-mantep, semoga papa jadi semangat kuliah ya hehehe
I wish u luck and success dear :X

:D

Wow to lebaran this year..
I am exhausted..
Doing everyday chores and added with extra diarrhea and vomit
i spend my days cleaning and washing feces and vomit
First Issey then followed with Ara, i just hope there isn't any following act from my eldest daughter ^^'
My husband had already complained that he had nausea
Just dandy :D

Happy Eid Mobarak 1432 H

Kita sekeluarga merayakan lebaran tahun ini, dan seperti yang lalu-lalu, mengikuti Muhammadiyah, jadi lebaran lebih dulu yaitu tgl 30 agustus 2011. So, sementara yang lain masih puasa kita udah jalan-jalan dan makan kenyang hehehe
Selamat lebaran semua, Taqobbal Allahu minna wa minkum (Semoga Allah menerima amalku dan amal kita)
Maaf lahir batin

Excess Baggage

I got some excess baggage on me
it is urgently need to be removed
i need to cool down and focus, please god help me..

C Ya Mbak Cicie

Saying goodbye to my beloved sister at the airport, till we meet again in 4 years ahead
or sooner, if life goes the way we expected to be ^^

Renungan Ramadhan

Beberapa hari yang lalu ibu mertua posting di wall fb sebuah renungan Ramadhan:

Ketika Allah rindu pada hambanya, Ia akan mengirimkan sebuah kado istimewa melalui malaikat Jibril yg isinya adalah ujian. Dalam hadits qudsi Allah berfirman. "Pergilah pada hambaku lalu timpakanlah berbagai ujian padanya karna Aku ingin mendengar rintihannya." (HR Thabrani dari Abu Umamah)

Kebetulan sebelumnya ayahanda masuk rumah sakit karena kesakitan hebat

Ternyata hamba masih dirindukan oleh Allah SWT..

Salah Baca

Karena gw tipe yang mengingat bentuk kata maka sering kali gw salah baca
Seharusnya tiap kata dan kalimat dibaca baik-baik, tapi karena gw pengen cepet-cepet baca, jadi beginilah nasibku.., seperti barusan gw baca tulisan "produk jerawatan"
WOW
apa tuh produk jerawatan
ternyata gw salah liat, harusnya "produk perawatan"
:D

Rencana Lebaran

Jadi gak jadi, pengen gak pengen, mau gak mau..
Aneh banget
Sudah beberapa tahun belakangan ini suami keliatan pengen mudik lebaran ke Palembang tapi gak jadi melulu.. taun ini keliatannya udah pasti banget, tapi tiba-tiba pas ngeliat harga tiket untuk kita berlima (suami istri n 3 anak) diatas 6 juta rupiah tiba-tiba suami langsung mengundurkan diri, bilang lebaran di Bogor aja :D
Yaaahhh... terus terang gw sedih, sedih untuk suami n mertua, kan pasti mereka yang pengen banget, bagi gw sendiri Paembang tentu aja menyenangkan tapi gak ada bedanya lebaran atau bukan, gak ada perasaan sentimentil, jadi gw sedih untuk suami n mertua
Tapi yah memang kondisi keuangan membuat kita harus berpikir logis, 6 juta bow, it'll be much better if we save it for the rainy days, although right now everyday is raining for we are in a great debt, but let us not talk about it ;)
Walhasil rencana lebaran taun ini kita di Bogor hehehe

Foto Ikan

Hehehe, lagi browsing foto di facebook tiba-tiba ada foto yang berdampingan, yg satu gambar akuarium besar dengan ikan-ikanya yang besar-besar berenang dengan riang, foto satunya lagi gambar ikan dan produk laut lainnya ditusuk siap dibakar, kesannya konyol banget :D

Sweet Sensation

Last monday i went to a mall, when i was just window shopping suddenly i smell a sweet wonderful fragrant, so mouth watering, a begging for more :D made me want to breath deeper, i want to fill my lung with that sweet sensation.. mmmhh..
It was the smell of baked chocolate cookies, sooooo terribly wonderful, yummy..
I want to taste the smell again, cause not only it was sweet and pleasant but in a way it smell comforting, like how life should be, smell like a home sweet home :)

Life Is Great

It was not a hiatus, i was busy..
First i had a big occation which is the birth of my 3rd child, welcoming my newest daughter with lots of love, :x.
Then i had a bigger occasion, my love, my husband was being hospitalized for a month, it was tremendous affair to think i almost lost him..
Life was a bit hectic since, until now he is still recovering but slowly i'm catching up the pace and since it doesn't get any faster i'm beginning to keep up with it
i can even write something on my blog, see?
:D
Life is great again

Thank You God for giving me this much.