Emotional Breakdown

I was pregnant for about 11 weeks, until i was told that my fetus wont grow
I could see inside the placenta that there were nothing, there was just an empty placenta inside my womb
The only solution for it was to exterminate the fetus
I think i handle it okay
Well i thought i was, until the procedure was done
As soon as the anesthetic worn out i could felt it in me the emptiness
It was overflowing and i cried in that instant
There was a hollow in my heart

11 weeks and it attached in my heart without me ever knowing